Balance. It’s my one little word for 2015. For the past month, I’ve struggled with coming up with a word for 2015. My word for 2014 was present. I think I did an adequate job of being present throughout the year. I’ve put down the phone at dinner. Given Ryder my undivided attention when he needed it most. And I’ve tried to put down the phone while with Jon (unless of course it was needed).
For the sake of my own good, in 2015, I need to find balance in my life. Gone are the days of working until 1-2 in the morning because it’s the only time I can find to work uninterrupted. If it means I hire a sitter for a few hours each week so be it. I’m a work at home mother. I own a business and I feel like my business is not thriving the way I wanted it to because I don’t have the time to work on it.
My goal is to get 10 uninterrupted hours of work in a week plus work during naps. I feel like it might be a lofty goal but one that I feel I should be able to achieve if I hire help. I think part of me feels guilty for hiring help. And then I remind myself that I’m a work at home mama. I make money to pay bills. It’s ok to hire help so that I can make money for our family. And at the same time, I realize that some weeks I might not be able to achieve this goal. I’m ok with that. Some weeks I won’t be able to get all the post that I planned to publish for the week out. I’m learning to live with it.
In an effort to help the balance and my sanity I attended my first MOPS meeting yesterday. I had 1.5 hours of time to myself… That was until the pager went off and I had to pick up Ryder from the nursery. He was due for his nap and was in rare ugly-crying mode. But I will say I’m looking forward to attending future meetings and taking a few hours to my self!
I also want to continue my date nights with Jon. I need them for the sake of our relationship. After being together 12 years it’s a big adjustment to add another human being in to the mix. I want to continue to balance my time with Jon. Last year, I would work every other night and on the other nights that I choose not to work I would spend the evening with Jon (after putting Ryder to bed).
So there you have it. My one little word for 2015. I know I won’t master having a balanced life, but I simply just want to work on having a better control over all the different areas of my life.
Do you have a word for 2015? If so, what is it? Tell us in the comments below.